Katelyn
Trying something NewA New Year
I really don’t have that much to say about 2009. I’m 9 days into it, and so far, it has been an improvement from 2008. Things are starting to fall into place. at least some things are starting to fall into place.
Lets start from the beginning since the last time I updated was back in November. biggest change in my life is that i am no longer riding my Casey. In these economic times, partnered with the high maintence and monthly fee, I have moved onto a different horse, Willow. My trainer, Mike, was going to put me on a different horse anyway, regardless of money, but tat didn’t make the change any easier. I’ve been with casey for two years now. He’s one of the first horses I’ve ever really had a trusting relationship with. when I started on him, I was a timid rider. crossrails sometimes intimidated me, and I had yet to have a really bad fall. sure, I’ve fallen before, but my first REAL fall was off of casey. my first buck, was with casey, my first 3′ fence was with casey. he’s really helped me develop as a rider, and we’ve been through a lot together. He tolerated my dumb mistakes, but after a point, got fend up with them and started stopping. He taught me things. he improved my equitation. And most of all, we had a relationship. he tristed me, and I trusted him. together we ended up 3rd in OHJA, which to some may not be a huge deal, but for me it is.
course, it sounds like I’m writing at his funeral. No no, Casey is doing fabulously. all I’m saying is that because Casey and I went through so much together, its hard for me to start riding another horse. I had a sense of ownership over him, and I dont share well! however, the woman who is leasing him is an angel. He’s in good hands, and will be the best groomed horse in the barn!!! Willow, is the polar opposite of Casey. its not that he’s not a good horse, he is. and I love him. He’s honest, and deffinetly has an attitude. But he’s got some fire in him. While casey was more than willing to chill, Willow doesn’t want to! he has energy, and he wants to use it! Which isn’t a bad thing. I know there are many things that willow will teach me. I also can’t really “screw up” his training because he’ll just toss me in the footing if I get in his way. All in all, its been an interesting two months with him. He’s also incredibly scopey, adnd clears 3’6″ without a second thought, something I wouldn’t attempt on another horse, so he deffinetly it a fun FUN ride! =)
So, the horse part is under control. but being the second semester, I am looking ahead to college….not knowing what I want to do with my life. I’m choreographing an original piece for my senior thesis…..without the ability to mime or do ballet. But n doing so, I’ve discovered I have a huge passion for dance! I dont know what I want to persue. I cant see myself living without horses….but there are so many things I want to try in my future, I really dont know where I want to start. Doug Jones has opened up a whole side to movies I never knew existed. I want to go into choreography, horse training, college prof, NOAH, costume design….I really have no idea!
you see my delema?
So…I guess thats got me in a fix. I did get rid of Dan though. I felt bad about it, but I can’t have a 16 year old say he loves me, after only seenig each other twice. and he is a good kid, I really like him–as a friend. I don’t think he really understood what I mean when I told him that I didn’t like him “that” way. he’s still texting me every day….
boys are confusing. met a guy at the Nutcracker while I was ushering. Kyle. and he’s local! (yes!) he slipped me his cell number as he left the theatre….and we’ve been texting since, but its been almost a month now and we haven’t hung out yet. or even gone on a date. everytime I bring something up he just kinda gives me some bullshit answer. I’m starting to feel pushy and forward. Something I deffinetly dont want to be. but hell, if he gave me his cell, that means he’s interested, right? thats what I assume anyway. course, now I dont even really care. I just think he’s a nice guy, hell, I’d be annoyed if my friends gave me vague answers like he does. But then he’ll be very interested in my life….so I just dont know what to think anymore. I’m just going for friends. besides, relationships complicate the hell outta life. as nice as they can be, all they do is add stress, and right now, thats not what I need. (now a straight guy friend that I can vent to, THAT IS something I need.) so…I’ll just see how this goes.
which pretty much brings me to the new year. so I really haven’t done THAT much stuff…been kinda lazy actually, but isn’t that what the holidays are for?? now its back to school with senior thesis and exams and college….
when is may gonna get here??
